I saw this while browsing on Pinterest and thought it was so fitting. Anyone who has gone through some amount of infertility has heard some of this at one point or another.
And This is totally how I feel with out ttc journey for the last 10 months now.
This bib completely describes how anyone who has gone through infertility and made it out the other side, or is still hoping to make it out the other side feel about the process.
Well I guess I should back up a little bit. My husband and I have 2 kids already Thing 1 and Thing 2 we would like to throw in a fish soon too. We officially started trying for number 3 (our fish) back in July 2011. I have always been regular on my periods ALWAYS. at this time my periods decided instead of being on the same date (I was always the 7th before thing 2 then went to being always the 1st after thing 2 ) it didn’t matter how long or short the month was I always started the same date of the month. Well in July I started early, then in august I started early again I was only having about 26 days from start date to start date of periods. it really sucks (especially when I did the math and I was gonna have 2 full periods in december) well in september we decided I would get some ovulation tests and try using them so we could have more luck on our side with trying to make our fish. Well I didn’t get positives I got the slight line but never a positive (mind you I stopped for one day because I was past when I should have o’ed for a 26 day cycle then started up for a couple more days so my guess was it happened that day). So when I didn’t start on that 26th day I took a test and got a BFN then 4 days later I took another test and got a BFP! (due June 18th 2012) I was so excited I was trying to plan out how to tell my husband (just to be fitting we’ll call him the Cat in the hat because he really is like a big kid and does things to get in trouble but with good intentions) well unfortunately we were in the middle of a 2 day fight at this time (were both stubborn so it takes a little while to come back down and my hormones were going crazy and I think it was his time of the month lol). SO he finally says sorry (I now can’t even remember what we were fighting about) and I tell him he was so excited. I know I need to get in to the dr soon because I had a lot of issues with my blood pressure and was put on bed rest with Thing 2. Well at 5 weeks 4 days (Oct 18 2011) I had a miscarriage. It was horrible I started bleeding on friday (October 14) it was all dark brown and I tried to take it easy it continued through the weekend. but seemed to have stopped on monday afternoon I was so excited I hadn’t passed any clots so this was a good sign we might still be having a baby. Still no more blood at night so I didn’t wear anything I got up in the morning and got ready for work as I was picking out Thing 1 & 2′s clothes I was like OMG and ran to the bathroom I felt a gush and I just sat there as I could feel the pain starting again and then I felt it travel out of me. I wiped then looked in the toilet There was the biggest mass I had ever seen in there I was in such shock I couldn’t help but keep thinking I need to flush the toilet but I want to pull this stuff out and examine it but eww no that’s gross reaching in the toilet but I can’t flush it without looking at it maybe it looks so big cause an illusion of the water (I even took a picture to show my husband). Well needless to say I’m CRAZY I reached in and pulled it out. Part of it was blood clot (you know the stuff that breaks apart easily once you run it under water and gets all stringy) the other part had to be my baby it was thicker and meaty and didn’t break apart under the water I put it back in the toilet and did the hardest thing I flushed… So now we are back to trying to conceive. I wasn’t so much in the mood this month so we have only had sex once and it was close to when I should have o’ed but who nows I’m not holding my hopes up for it this time.
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