When did you find out?

I am having some more symptoms today. I have been feeling nauseous again today. I am so tired and WOW do the girls hurt. I have never had them hurt so bad even when breastfeeding. I just want pressure on them so bad. TCH came home to me cooking dinner last night and asked why I was holding myself. When I explained that they hurt he then offered to hold them while I cooked I declined, cause you know all men will do is make it worse. How early did you find out you were pregnant? Did you test because you had symptoms other than a missed period or were you testing every day after 4 days past ovulation lol? what were your first symptoms?

Hello 3 am

Well hello 3 am! I was finally sleeping as of midnight and now here I am awake again! I really really really had to pee. So I got up went to the bathroom then laid back down to go to sleep. But now here it is 2 hours later and I still can’t sleep. I have been feeling some nausea off and on since I woke up. Hopefully this is a good sign! Maybe we have succeed this month. My boobs are also getting a little tender and tingly, you know that tingly sensation before you let down when breastfeeding its crazy I keep checking myself to make sure I’m not leaking through my shirt its weird cause I stopped producing milk a year ago.

**updated when I got out of bed around 6 I walked to the door and had to brace myself because I got so light-headed I could feel all the blood rush out of my head so fast I couldn’t see for a moment luckily once I felt it start I was able to hurry myself to the door jamb to brace myself so I didn’t fall down.

Flooded

Sorry I just flooded everyone with all these posts, I said I had them to post and kept getting pulled away every time I tried to get on and get them posted. So today I had some extra time and thought I would get them up before another month went by.

Also I thought I should update you. Well we did our baby dancing twice around our window of opportunity even though the kids havent been making it easy.  We are now 2 days into the 2 week wait (2ww). I’m really hoping this could be our month. If it is we will be due early december. but if it goes like last time baby will be here early november. I’m really want this to be our month I loved being pregnant. I love feeling that little life growing inside of me. I would go to bed 30 min be TCH just so I could listen to the baby move on the doppler we have. FYI for anyone who has gone through infertility and loss If you have that fear of what if something happened (those stages before you can feel the movements and don’t have assurance that baby is ok except for every couple of weeks in the beginning) BUY ONE! this is one like I got

It really is the best purchase it gives you peace of mind when you’re in the those stages where loss is more common and you can catch the heartbeat really early. some people I have known have got it at 9 weeks most by 12 (it all depends on body type and how your uterus is shaped and tilted) but even if you can’t get the heart beat (thing 2 was very difficult didn’t get it til 18 weeks at home and 20 weeks at dr’s) I could still listen to the movements and man baby was doing some kung fu fighting! It’s great to have that assurance that everything is going good. you can even hook it up to your computer and record it.

Well here’s to hoping that I can stay occupied for the next 12 days and that aunt flow stays away for the next 9 months…

Sperm meet egg, egg meet sperm please join as one to form a little fish that will stick and thrive and grow inside me for the next 9 months!

Hope everyone is doing well I know a couple of you are at the same point as me in your journey right now so I hope you have a peaceful 2ww and get your BFP also!

To the rest of you who are pregnant sorry your morning sickness is kicking your butt, or I’m happy its staying clear from you. Just remember how blessed you are to have that little life growing and thriving there inside you and never take it for granted!

 

Weird

Ok so I have no idea what my body is doing to me…. yesterday was bright red blood when I wiped around 2pm then the rest of the day there was still only small amounts only when I wiped but still bright red over night it got darker and is now looking like old blood and is still only in the amounts of only when I wipe…. I’m so confused and don’t know what to think…. my body doesn’t normally do this I am usually really heavy flow the first couple days…. I have never had implantation bleeding so I don’t know but I don’t think it would be this late…. I mean if I were to go back to my normal cycle I would be 4 days early on starting and I was 10 dpo so I guess it is possible but I don’t think so I just hate not knowing….. I wish aunt flow would just fully arrive so we could get on with trying or stop teasing so I will want to test….

2 Week Wait

Well not that we were seriously trying this month with the miscarriage and all but If it happens it would be wonderful. I have 9 days left of the 2 week wait…. I really hate having to wait I wish  I could know sooner…. Is it sad that I want to test already there is no way I would get accurate results and it’s not like we were seriously trying but I really think I am a POASA (pee on a stick addict). So Hopefully these next 9 days will fly by so if it won’t be a positive we can get to trying again…. I’ll have to stock up on the ovulation tests again….

What do you do in your spare time to try to keep your mind off the 2 week wait??

possible symptoms:

Tuesday and Wednesday nausea

Wednesday really sore boobs

Oh so tired this week also… but no headaches even though I have dramatically cut back my caffeine intake the last week (which is a great sign cause when I was pregnant before I almost never got headaches) I also have MS so If I do become pregnant my MS symptoms will start getting better. My back felt the best it had ever felt while I was pregnant and I have some numbness in my feet and it had gone away while I was pregnant also. It really makes me want to be pregnant all the time since it keeps my pain away

Intro to the blogging world

Well I guess I should back up a little bit. My husband and I have 2 kids already Thing 1 and Thing 2 we would like to throw in a fish soon too. We officially started trying for number 3 (our fish) back in July 2011. I have always been regular on my periods ALWAYS. at this time my periods decided instead of being on the same date (I was always the 7th before thing 2 then went to being always the 1st after thing 2 ) it didn’t matter how long or short the month was I always started the same date of the month. Well in July I started early, then in august I started early again I was only having about 26 days from start date to start date of periods. it really sucks (especially when I did the math and I was gonna have 2 full periods in december) well in september we decided I would get some ovulation tests and try using them so we could have more luck on our side with trying to make our fish. Well I didn’t get positives I got the slight line but never a positive (mind you I stopped for one day because I was past when I should have o’ed for a 26 day cycle then started up for a couple more days so my guess was it happened that day). So when I didn’t start on that 26th day I took a test and got a BFN then 4 days later  I took another test and got a BFP! (due June 18th 2012) I was so excited I was trying to plan out how to tell my husband (just to be fitting we’ll call him the Cat in the hat because he really is like a big kid and does things to get in trouble but with good intentions)  well unfortunately we were in the middle of a 2 day fight at this time (were both stubborn so it takes a little while to come back down and my hormones were going crazy and I think it was his time of the month lol). SO he finally says sorry (I now can’t even remember what we were fighting about) and I tell him he was so excited. I know I need to get in to the dr soon because I had a lot of issues with my blood pressure and was put on bed rest with Thing 2. Well at 5 weeks 4 days (Oct 18 2011) I had a miscarriage. It was horrible I started bleeding on friday (October 14) it was all dark brown and I tried to take it easy it continued through the weekend. but seemed to have stopped on monday afternoon I was so excited I hadn’t passed any clots so this was a good sign we might still be having a baby. Still no more blood at night  so I didn’t wear anything I got up in the morning and got ready for work as I was picking out Thing 1 & 2′s clothes I was like OMG and ran to the bathroom I felt a gush and I just sat there as I could feel the pain starting again and then  I felt it travel out of me. I wiped then looked in the toilet There was the biggest mass I had ever seen in there  I was in such shock I couldn’t help but keep thinking I need to flush the toilet but I want to pull this stuff out and examine it but eww no that’s gross reaching in the toilet but I can’t flush it without looking at it maybe it looks so big cause an illusion of the water (I even took a picture to show my husband). Well needless to say I’m CRAZY I reached in and pulled it out. Part of it was blood clot (you know the stuff that breaks apart easily once you run it under water and gets all stringy)  the other part had to be my baby it was thicker and meaty and didn’t break apart under the water I put it back in the toilet and did the hardest thing I flushed… So now we are back to trying to conceive. I wasn’t so much in the mood this month so we have only had sex once and it was close to when I should have o’ed but who nows I’m not holding my hopes up for it this time.

So Come Join us on our Journey to conceiving our fish